Monday, October 26, 2009

on my heart

God is moving. He is moving in huge ways. i can physically feel the momentum building for something really big to happen.

i am refusing to keep God in a box. for how long have i always seen my problems as so big and completely overlooked how much bigger my God is??? we must seek God! we must not forget that He keeps His promises. His promises are so real, but sometimes they take time. we must be patient. we must stay in the field like Ruth. i am so quick to forget how amazing He is. i must be still and listen. He will lead us, He wants to lead us. it's our choice to follow. remembering always that the best chance for success is to be in His plan. and we can't try to figure out that plan ourselves. we absolutely cannot put words in His mouth. He will not hide His plan from us, He will not play games with us. He is faithful. He won't give up on us, even when we ignore Him. we must simply trust Him.

when we look at the story of David and Goliath, David does not have a spirit of fear. 2 Timothy 1:7 says, "God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and sound mind." we have the same power on our side that conquered the grave. wow. what are we afraid of??? we each have Goliath's in our lives. we have these fears and giants that sometimes seem so much bigger than anything we can handle. things like fear or failure, future, people, death, and rejection. sometimes we allow these Goliath's to take control of our lives, but that is not what the Bible tells us to do.

David did three things to slay his giant that we can all do in our own lives:
1. he remembered the times where God showed up for him. 1 sam 17:34-37
how many miracles, mercies, and obviously God-orchestrated situations have i witnessed? why do i ignore those when i am up against my Goliath?
2. he made a bold move. 1 sam 17:34 and psalm 27:1
our giants aren't going away on their own, we can't ignore them. we must be bold, we must step out on faith. if we expect great things we will not be disappointed. God will show up.
3. he focused on his God. 1 sam 17:45-47
David had no support from his family or friends when he decided to battle Goliath, but he did has his God.

all this has been on my heart lately, it's a combination of what my friends and i have been discussing and sermons i've heard. simply put, i am stepping out on my faith. i am being bold in facing my Goliaths. i am clinging to His promises. i am doing something.

isaiah 46:4
"even to your old age and grey hairs, I am He. I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you."

Thursday, October 22, 2009

first self portrait

my first ever self portrait!!! oil pastels are not my favorite. i feel like i'm coloring with crayons, but i liked doing it! the assignment was to do a self portrait in costume. this was the result. it's not the best by any means but it will work : )